Ugh, College...

I've been so excited to go back to school all summer long.  I've been working really hard this summer, and I'm ready to get back to learning.  Although thinking about how much college costs is driving me insane!  Seriously, I could just work at a crappy job and still get a car and a nice house with that money and not be broke.  Or I could just go to school, pay even more money for education, and struggle to find a job that won't make me go insane after school.

I really do plan on staying in school though.  I am really glad I decided to go through with it.  It's just frustrating how you have to pay so much for tuition and then spend even more on food and textbooks.  After paying for a lot of my own stuff this summer, I'm so done with having to put even more money towards necessary evils.

Hopefully one day I will get to relax with a good job, car, and nice house and be proud of myself for pushing through working 3 jobs and going to school full time.  All I know is I can't wait for that day.

Cleansing Your Life

I have gone through so much in the past year.  I have learned even more from my experiences.  The best way to break it down is probably through bullet points though, so here we go.

1. Living in dorms is not for me.
• For one thing, I'm way too introverted.
• I also have too much stuff.  
• We moved into a bigger house about a month ago
• The attic is my craft space and I also have a bedroom
• Where do I put all this stuff?!
• I like having the space to spread out, though.
2. I gained over 50 pounds this past year.
• Seriously, the freshman 15 is real and it's usually more than 15 pounds.
• I also was on depo provera for a health problem
• We can get into how awful being on depo was at a later time
• I am currently getting off of depo and am already losing weight within a week after I was supposed to get my next shot
• It's fantastic.
• I also have serious stretch marks that I'm very insecure about.
3. I also have spent so much money.
• I now have debt to pay off.
• Also it didn't help that I kept losing hours when I was told I would be working.
• I probably wouldn't have debt if that happened.

So I guess I have some solutions and goals for myself within the next year:

1. Pay off debt.  Hopefully by the end of 2015.
2. Get rid of all the stuff I know I won't use.  That can help with the first goal too!
3. Eat clean and work out.  It won't be simple.  But all I know is every day I don't try to work on myself in this way I get even more upset with myself.

I just really want to cleanse my life from all the things that are weighing me down.